I’m Special
“Sad that some folks can experience that place and not know & feel the truth,” a FB comment about someone’s trip to The Grand Canyon made me want to reach through the internet and smack her with a dead fish. The comment triggered the first negative thought I had in an otherwise peaceful day. It got my dander up so I explored it. I really wanted to explore her side of it which is much easier to do but that does nothing for me so I sucked it up and went to ground. It was harder than I expected it would be. I really expected today to be a walk in the park, not the inner challenge it was.
I cleaned house, went for walk, washed dishes while I let my response to her posting filter through my consciousness until I came to this conclusion.
What caused my negative reaction was someone feeling special in a way that seemed to exclude anyone who didn’t share the same experience in the same way. I’ve been guilty of the same thing this week and it’s been niggling the edges of my consciousness. Now I know why.
I am a classic Aquarian and take pride in being different. This was especially evident on FaceBook this week in the responses I received about a posting I made about not being perceived as normal. I puffed up with pride when Catherine wrote, “I enjoy reading your posts for the very reason that you express your individuality so freely.” Yeah, that’s me, lookie, lookie, I’m special. Then a high school friend wrote,” Remember, my friend, that you are special, one-of-a-kind, unique individual — just like everyone else!” No, no, no, not that. He was right though, right and wise.
My eventual response to the posting that got my dander up was “How do you know when someone knows and feels the truth? No one, including me has a monopoly on truth. People discover and are reminded of truth, make that Truth, in different places and it different ways. What’s important is that as many of us as can find and live that truth for all of our sakes.”
I’m special and unique and so are you, that is truth. We each have a role to play now and in the days to come. It is important that we embrace our own individuality and celebrate it and it is just as important that we recognize, embrace and celebrate the individuality and uniqueness of our brothers and sisters in spirit. Negativity only serves to obscure that which is as good a reason as any for removing it from my life.
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p.s. I dropped your name on Gina's post, Barb. ;)
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well here’s a thought that goes along some of these same lines. Sometimes people just need a good telling off. I’m thinking of my brother for one. Every once in a long while I just let things rip. And feel 100% for it. It is far more emotionally honest than letting things simmer and seethe.
About 10 years after our mother died and left everything to him none of us were speaking much at all. We were all so wounded. but we did have a family blog that we would post on, new grandkids, etc.
one day my brother just posted on the blog that he was selling the house. opened up a huge family debate that had been simmering all those years. And I got the chance to tell my brother in writing for all to see exactly how I felt, and never regretted it. In fact totally healed a huge wound. for me.
Like the most outrageous comments he was making. oh oh poor me, when I took over Dad’s real estate company he only paid me 40% poor me, on and on. And I got a chance to say “Well, guess what……..back then, in the 1980′s we all earned 40% so stop complaining etc etc. God it felt so good to get a few things strait.
Our AA program is also about emotional honesty. Time to tell it like it is, time to bite your tongue, and sometimes timing is everything. just a few thoughts from me.
I thought long and hard about what to say in response primarily because I had such a strong reaction. A strong reaction is almost always a hint that there is something going on at my end that is best sorted out first. She didn’t say or do anything out of line. She is relatively young and experienced something rather profound. That Wow, isn’t the is neat reaction is part of most people’s spiritual evolution. I know it was part of mine. Telling her off would serve nothing, giving her something to think about does. Discernment helps me know when to speak, what to say and when to say it.
I am generally known for being genuine and emotionally honest but I am finding that there is often as not a way to do it that enables me to grow and room for the relationship to heal. That is not always possible, sometimes you’ve got to say what you’ve got to say. If you fear speaking the truth then you are part of the problem.
I am seeing more and more situations where people need to speak out and should. What’s the quote, “All that’s required of evil to exist is for a good man to do nothing.” One of the things that we can do is speak out and refuse to accept the lies that are being shoved down our throat.
I often feel like the kid who says, “The emperor has no clothes.” Eventually people are willing to admit the truth too instead of going along with the crowd.