lately and maybe its not lately but my whole life i have been feeling so bitchy and angry and frustrated and alone and sad and mad at myself for feeling this way…i am 64 have a great husband… a good job…two great kids… friends..and still just pick away at everything…feel extremely disapointed in my best friend just that kind of back stabbing seventh grade stuff… and i dont stop it…what is going on i can clearly see that this is not the way that i want to be but i can also clearly see that this is the way that i am…ugh ..have health have all good stuff going on just sad… beyond belief…help
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Maybe it’s time for you to talk with a counsellor.
They may be able to zero in on the why of your unhappiness.
I echo what nikotyme said. In this day and age, people no longer think seeing a psychiatrist is anything shameful. He/she will probably then decide which therapist may be most helpful for you – but the psychiatrist will be the one who’ll decide what your physical disorder is that’s causing so many emotional problems for you, as well as what prescription may help you most.
Please get help with this, ginny. Your life sounds like it has SO MUCH potential for happiness, and you’re missing out on that simply because you’re staying locked in some kind of hell that a psychiatrist and therapist can help you escape from.
Life is too short to waste it like this. Please, please get the help you need.
Hi ginnyl,
I have mild melancholia, inherited from my dad, and wrestle with some of the same feelings you have described. Because of this ‘condition’ I have researched the ‘human condition’…what is life all about etc., for years! This search has lead me to hundreds of books on the subject!
A recent book I read, “My Stroke of Insight” by Jill Bolte Taylor gave me some very insightful answers! You might want to ‘Google” her. She has an hour long video on “The Ted Show” that is interesting, as well.
Well, there are thousands of books/articles on depression/mild depression, etc. I think some of us are born with a tendency toward ‘sadness’. I know I work with it all the time!
Here is one person’s thoughts on this subject…I liked what he had to say!
“You are crying and sad for no reason then probably that side of your mind that builds up the negative aspects of life is at play. The best analogy I can give is dribbling a basket ball. Lets say you can dribble with either hand. One hand represents good positive thoughts and the other is negative destructive thoughts. You are thinking too much of the down thoughts. If you want that bad arm to be strong and coordinated you can keep thinking those thoughts that got you nowhere. OR, you can choose, consciously, to think thoughts that uplift you and inspire you. The mind is a crazy thing and even now you might be saying but I can’t I can’t. The truth is YES YOU CAN. You can choose to think positive thoughts and create positive action in your daily life and flowers will bloom from the seeds.
I can give you an example from my own experience. I took this advice I just gave you and made it part of my being part of my subconscious. The other night I had a dream about someone of the opposite sex (I am heterosexual) that was totally made up but it was a girl I saw as a good person and someone I would like to be with. My life had spiraled out of control so far in the past that a dream like this just wouldn’t have happened. I had horrible dreams to summarize. So I know it sounds cheesy but reaching a point where dreaming of your “dream (girl/boy)” can be a massive breakthrough. Choose to build up that side of you that thinks about how great you are, how great of potential you have, how great you will be, how great of things that will be in your life. You are someone special and someone worthy of love. Remember that and stop doubting.”
Venting your thoughts/feelings, here on VN, can be VERY helpful!!! I send you a hug!
Ginny,
First I want to say how great it is that you have noticed that there is a difference between the way you might automatically react in a moment and who you really are. That is an enourmous point of evolution in and of itself. I read recently that you cannot stop how you may think and feel at any moment. Many feelings and thoughts are always running through. What really matters is what thought or feeling you choose to hang on to and act out of. This was really helpful to me because I have nasty thoughts and feelings all the time. It feels good to know that I am not a bad person for feeling the way I do. My automatic thoughts are not me. They are just floating through. I get to choose. That has been really helpful for me when I can notice, in the moment, that I am not my thoughts. It gives me such freedom. It has made a big difference for me.