Hi…I wish I could pull myself out of this hole!!! One day I feel positive & the next I feel hopeless. What’s wrong w/me? I should be happy…I have a good husband who cares about me & spoils me, don’t have to work, mom lives w/us & I am the caregiver for her & she helps us financially & that makes our stress level very low, so what is my problem??? Well, I’ll partially answer my own question…Caregiving is challenging &I have a family curse…depression. I’ve been on meds for about 10 years my primary doc increased & added to my meds since my mom has been living w/us.
I know I have to involve myself in something other than caring for mom, but when there’s not much get up and go it’s very difficult. I think maybe my spirit has been broken & I can’t seem to get it back or fix it. My feelings are not consistent. There are so many days that I wish I wasn’t even here…life feels so difficult. I’ve gotten some good advice from my friends from VN but can’t seem to put it into action. I don’t mean to always be dramatic but these are my feelings and I don’t like them but don’t know how to change them.
Can anyone show me the road to happiness???