I cancelled my online dating site subscriptions…I was on two. Here is what I have determined.
I am not happy with myself. I am not in a good place…coming off of an antidepressant, need to lose 35 pounds, need to get my finances in order, need to work seriously on a book I have started. How would I squeeze a man into that? And would it be fair to someone to start a relationship if I am not in a good place? The answers are…I can’t fit anyone in and I won’t be unfair to someone.
I panicked when I divorced, I panicked when I turned 56…and panic is not a good place to be when looking for love. The temptation would be to find someone who can solve my problems, and that is exactly the kind of thinking that has gotten me into bad relationships to start with. Just sign me…Crazy in Alabama
I made the decision to go grey a few weeks ago. Actually, I had been wanting to do it for a long time but couldn't find a stylist who seemed keen on working with me. I am 53, a school teacher and look probably 10 years younger, and i was being told 
I wrote this in 2003 and recently discovered it in a desk drawer!
HI, Sylvestercat,
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Don’t you just hate it when you have to be your own knight in shining armor? I know exactly how you feel. It makes me do rash, what the hell things that I inevitable regret.
I could write a book about the rash, what the hell things I have done…but that would depress me even more lol. And I guess if I have to trust and rely on someone…it might as well be me.
If you can’t trust yourself who can you trust? I don’t regret any of the rash and reckless things I’ve done. If nothing else they make a good story and what’s life if not a good story to tell.
Sounds like a great way to take care of yourself to me! Good for you. Just walk away from that “should,” that just because I’m not married, I should be dating, I should be attached. It’s the old adage “a woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.” You listened to yourself–and how valuable and admirable is that!
Vickie – just curious – why are you coming off the anti-depressants, now? Maybe you still need them.
Vonnie…my doctor prescribed them about a year ago when I was at rock bottom. I went to see her for something else, but when she came in the room I started crying and couldn’t stop. She would not let me leave until I promised I would take antidepressants amd see a counselor, which I did. I still see the counselor once a month. I never intended to use the meds long term. Yes, they make me calmer, but I also felt like I wasn’t FEELING anything. Now I am thinking maybe I am feeling a little too much
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Sometimes I wish I had a keeper…someone who would say, “Vicky, you need to get up now…go to bed now…eat this, not that…wear this, not that…take this pill, not that one.” oh, wait, then I would be Katie Holmes
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