Please don’t judge me! I was married; I didn’t have such a good marriage. I met this wonderful person, and a relationship happen. I hate telling the story, who else can I tell other than? To (VN), Please don’t judge me. I am not the person who you think I am. It just happened.
I feel awful because my husband passed away two years ago and his wife maybe 3/4 years. I can’t get over the pain. Most of all my husband is gone; I feel lost and disconnected. I can’t sleep at night. Next thing, I feel bad because I did it to another woman. After always saying, I would never do it to anyone,I did it. A few days ago, he contact me asking how was I doing? I answered with; I am fine, what about you? He replied are you sure? I refuse to tell him, my husband passed away. Not, because I am afraid, I will open the door for something else. However, because it hurt’s saying my husband is gone. Saying it here hurts. I have no friends here they live all over the world, all I have is my grown kids moving on with their life. I wish for my husband no matter how the marriage was. I took care of my husband for six years he had agent orange. I loved him but spent years tearfully because he would say things that would hurt so bad. Sometimes I couldn’t get out of bed because of depression. He is gone, and I am still crying. Please don’t judge me, I am living in my own hell! This is why I feel awful.