Quick summary of events. I’ve been with my husband since 15, we married at age 25 and now I’m almost 37 with two children…I am miserable! Bored, fed up, miserable (and sound like a selfish cow!).
We never go out, we never get drunk, we never have fun. I have to force him to do everything. I forced him to go to university, I forced him to get a good job, I forced him to travel the world – yes I’m bossy! We both have good jobs, our children are happy, financially we’re a mess but coping and getting by.
I love him like my best friend, he is the best father in the whole wide world and would do anything for our kids. Now after over 20 years I don’t know what to do. There is no sex, I don’t want it at all as I am totally unattracted to him as I see him as a friend.
I need to know do I stay in this pretend marriage where we all on the surface are happy, we do family things, we laugh but deep down I want more! I want the sexy husband, I want someone thrilling I want more!!!!!
Is this just a fantasy and by leaving will I jepordise this nice, safe little life that I have!!??
HELP! All advise welcome!