How do I end a 34 yr marriage

October 23, 2009 at 12:02 am in Family & Relationships, Love & Sex by nanijad

I am so unhappy. My marriage of 34 yrs is not good, not bad, not anything. No sex in 8 years. No companionship… just nothing. My husband’s marriage is fine so he says… But everything is wrong with mine and I want out. He is 11 yrs older than I. I used to think that he would die 1st than I could have a life of my own. The problem is that in January I had a massive heart attack and almost died. I realized that the stress of working, raising our family, worrying about the bills and everything had taken a toll on me. I have been the one who handled and did everything. I raised the kids as if I was a single parent even though their dad lived with us/ But they are all grown and have families of their own. Here is my problem. I don’t know how to end this. I am now on unemployment because my position was eliminated, I have 2 car payments but both cars are in his name as well as the credit cards. I am currently in school and when I finish I want to look for work in another state. This will at least get my feet out the door. I’m scared and yet not at the same time. Basically, I just need guidance as to how to even start this. I am 100% positive that I want out of this unhealthy environment and want what years I have left to be happy ones. Even if it means spending the rest of my life alone. There is a big difference between alone and lonely. Please can someone help with some guidance as to how I start.

Thanks so much