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Taking some wrong turns in life

Hi – Not sure where this fits.  Have you ever wondered “what if.

When I was young I met the love of my life..but of course I was too young at the time to recognize it.  We could never connect. 

When he wanted to be with me he would discuss other ladies, etc.  I just did not tolerate it and went about my life.  He ended up getting married at 19.   Years later we met up..(early 20′s)he was not happy.  He wanted to get together with me, but he was married..and once again I could not accept that..although he kept pursing me.  Years later…age 27…met up with him again…he wanted to get a divorce.,,and get together with me…wrote me a letter..saying he will love me forever..no matter what happens…but I told him I met someone and was going to go to school and lead my life.  I really felt a strong connection..but our paths just got turned in other directions.  I could never get him out of my system over the years. 

In my mid 30′s I found out by his mother… he did get a divorce and remarried to a woman with 5 kids.  I told his mother I wished him well.

Age 50…my husband died…and once again..thinking of that special someone from so long ago.  I saw hjs picture on facebook with his wife..how tempted I was to “tell him I said hi” but decided it was wrong. 

Now I will always think “what if”.  Why did my husband die??? Will our paths cross again one more time…I have heard so many stories of young lovers meeting up later in life..40 years later or longer…wow!  Just a thought.  I will always wonder..I still have the letter.  I would not try to ruin others lives.  Fate may catch up to us one day.  Sigh.

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  1. joyful53 joyful53 says

    You ended that perfectly…sigh. 

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  2. dynamomma dynamomma says

    Of course there are no answers for “what if”.  Maybe you could just console yourself with “everything does happen for a reason”, although we don’t see it or even like it,  there’s a purpose.

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  3. JoanPrice JoanPrice says

    Sometimes when we do meet an old love again, we find that we have both changed so much that our fantasy is just that: fantasy. Other times there’s a real spark again. But his pattern sounds destructive, unless he has changed a lot since his womanizing days.

    - Joan

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