Just told my husband that I wanted out and wanted at divorce. Wow!!!!! don’t know whether I’m crying because I am upset, or whether it be from exhaustion, or because I’m relived that it is over and the words are out now.
Been married for 34 years this coming June and it’s been hell the past several years. There is nothing left in this marriage and to be honest there never has been since day one. It was a marriage of quickness (6 months to be exact) but not of necessity. Only reason I stayed is because of our son. I knew he needed a father and then it was out of needing a place to live. I know I should have done it much sooner and my goal is to be gone by fall, but don’t know even if that will work like I want it. I know some of you will say I’m crazy for staying, but am pretty much a loner, and know that he won’t hurt me or even attempt to stop me. We both need this as much as the other person. I have no place to go, as I am not ready to expose my son to this as of yet, or do I have family in which to stay with during this time. I have found a male friend whom I want to spend time with and he has yet to tell his wife of his feelings.He is also out of state and I need to be visiting and looking for a place to stay and being able to transfer in the company that I work for. I know this is all crazy and mixed up. As, you all say in your posts that time will heal all and that it will take time for us to get used to the idea of not having to deal with marriage any longer.
I just recently found this web site and what a powerful website it is. I had no idea that there was so much dissolution with marriages out there with the 50+ ages. It has opened my eyes and heart to knowing that there are others out there going through the same thing. Now, I know over the next couple of months to the year it will be hard to get used to, but I have become very independent so this shouldn’t be hard at all, other than the financing to be able to live. Oh, why do we need that dang money? LOL
Thanks for listening, just needed a sounding board to get it off my chest.