I have been separated for almost 8 months now. The pain/agony is still there and this past week, the “what could be/should be/ could have done , was this all a big mistake and what are the chances of a reconciliation thoughts all came in a fury and I was left floundering again in despair and self doubt. Ex had moved on with a gf shortly after I moved out and from what I have heard broken up with her after only 5 months. She probably was a rebound gf.
Anyway I have always wanted to take latin dances so this past week, was googling online and checking up on Meetup Groups in my area for salsa dancing. I was checking out this Salsa Meetup group and it was offering dance lessons on Sunday afternoons from 2-3:30pm and I was almost ready to sign up till I saw my EX’s pic on the sign up members list. I was thinking to be a member to go to the dance lessons , My ex is a member of the group and has been even before our separation. There are pics of him in 3 of the events hosted. Him dancing with another lady and looking rather miserable. This is a guy who has only signed up for the lessons hoping to meet the next new gf. What we know is there are more women than men when it comes to taking dance lessons and he is only there for one reason and one reason only. This is a guy who tells me he wants to date and sleep with as many women as possible after we break up.
So I was a bit shaken up to see pics of him in that group and make myself have a good look at the pics of him and now I know I have done the right move. I did not fall apart when I saw the pics of him. Actually I had a good laugh cos he looked like he was hurting in all of them. That my self doubting will pass and my one step forward and 2 steps back will too pass and soon enough I will be taking 2 steps forward and 1 back and moving along slowly but surely.
I did not sign up for the group and now have signed up for lessons at a dance studio instead. I know my motive of wanting to improve my dancing skills. I am doing it for ME and nobody else.