Papers are filed. That chapter is over. I have cleaned out closets, basement, shed…his presence is gone. I have landscaped my yard, worked like a crazy woman carving out a space that is me.
I went on a dating site and was approached by some seemingly very nice men…one who wanted to be my protector. But I discovered I am not looking for ANYONE, I am looking for SOMEONE.
I know a really nice, successful man, and I am very attracted to him because he is smart, kind, funny…all the things I am looking for. He doesn’t know I exist. I have put myself in his path, flirted just a little…and nothing. He is just as nice to me as he is to ANYONE else. So I find myself daydreaming that he will suddenly wake up and realize that I am the SOMEONE.
Is this a typical feeling after getting divorced? Am I fixated on someone who is clearly not interested in me just to protect myself from someone who might be?
I feel like a stupid teenager.