54 year old, mother of one daughter, grandmother of 3. Grew up in a farming community of the mid-south.  

How did you get to where you are now?

Good question. I don't know where I am, I'm defintely MIA.  I do know that where I am now is not where I want to be. I wish I could be one of those women who are self actualized, strong, and in charge of her life. And by all appearances I may look like one of them, but on the inside I'm not.  I depended way too much on my husband to carry me through the past 25 years. Blind trust.

How do you see yourself differently now than you did 10 years ago?

Ten years ago I was in denial about who I am, what I wanted, and where I was going. I now see myself with more open eyes and I am determined to change it.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

In 10 years I hope to be financially independent, attaining the goals and dreams of my own choosing. Without being held back and manipulated by another person who doesn't want me to change. My therapist would call it Being Your Authentic Self...I'm trying, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, restrain myself from getting in the car and driving into the sunset with the radio blasting, as I catch a glance of my past life in the rearview mirror.  But that's just another escape, which I've done in the past, now I'm trying to be an adult.  Time to grow up and face the beast inside.

What did you say?  I'll do it tomorrow? I wish I could? Stop with the whining and be in charge of your life!!!  There's never going to be a so-called good time to do the things you know you must do in order to be happy and satisfied with yourself!  Life is short. Love, live, and be who you are! 

My dad was such an inspiration of how to be a truly humble, good person.  He judged few, and loved many!