WOW  50... where did thirty and forty go?  The problems did not seem to leave at the same alarming rate as the youth did.. Never the less here we are and we are greatful to be here!  New Career paths, new friends, new choices... Same passion and love of my family.  I am blessed with grown kids and students from my years of Teaching dressage and jumpers, who have achieved so much more than I did.  But it is truely thrilling to see where they go and how they develop as people.  Girls you have been a huge blessing to me.  20 years in the insurance industry (yes it's still boring) and 12 in training riders.. hmmmm I loved that one!  Divorce, Death, disability are more than insurance terms.. it's a part of life that we all face at one point or another.  I was ready for the storms I thought I would encounter but was very unprepared for the storms that the broken home I helped create would cause in my family.  College was worth more in terms of networking and less in relavance as most of what we learned doesn't apply today in this market.  So it's back to school !Married twice, loved oone man truely once , and passionate about my kids, horses and great dogs...He was born to love me and I him, time was cruel and fate had a different plan.  So now we love from a far and know that someday we will get the chance in another realm to laugh, to cry, and to just be...no time, no destiny.. Just me and my love!  Until then  please send chocolate!!!!!!!!

How did you get to where you are now?

Choices  some good many bad most were never thought thru.. planning was not my strong trait.  I let life happen, reacted instead of beingproactive in relationships with husbands and money.. both slipped away.. Money I want to get again husband.... well we are still out on that one.. the right man and the right stage in life..maybe.

How do you see yourself differently now than you did 10 years ago?

Financially Solid for the first time in my life.  Very different in that I now know that God has a plan for me and my family and it is a good plan.  Ten years ago I was still trying to figure out if GOD knew I existed..  I had a really emotionally trying life.. it all blew up ten years ago and that implosion was the very best thing that happened to me.  I grew up

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

A Grand mother, with a big farm, cows, chickens, garden, horses and lots and lots of dogs!  A place where all my kids come home to and love to bring their family to.  A plce filled with Laughter, and eyes that shine with amazment.  I see an internet consulting firm and insurance agency that empowers others to experience their own financial freedom.  I want to council small business owned by women and men who are brave enough to step out in faith.. Like wine I get better each year so I look forward to the joy of it all.  Who knows maybe then I will finally figure out what I want to do next.  The whole Sam Ironhorn thing.. Sam came to me at 86 to learn to ride.  three years later he went to the middleeast to study politics and get another degree.. he was an inspiration on how to do life well.  Thanks Sam

Faith and Fear can not eat from the same table.  Faith eats from life and fear eats from death.  When you get the chance to go, volunteer to help others often and follow your dream, believe when no one else does they don't want that dream the way you do anyway, run girl don't look back.  There will be more than enough time to pay the bills and clean the house. Tithe, you need the blessing!  But remember to save money in an account that only you have access to!  You have opportunities at every road learn to look diligently for them and do not hold on to the issues.. ignore the voice of disbelief and inadequacy , that 's the garbage that you are suppose to leave on the curb.  And no matter what... Remember you have a GOD bigger than you, and your problems.. it's faith that crosses that mountain by the grace of God.  Please  let him when you can not... cause he can!!  Love with a whole heart and buy that land you know will be worth a fortune.. if not he will and put someone else twenty years younger in it! Stop and help those behind you when ever you can... she needs your encouragement.  Love her, she may only truely understand what love is if it comes from someone whose only interest is her wellbeing.  Be kind to the little girl you inside.. she still needs to play and feel pretty.  Stand up for yourself,and her.  God did not make mistakes... he creates the perfection of his image in everyone of us.. Be brave enough to tackle those giants with the stones that life gives you.. Breathe Deeply everyday and speak only building and kind words over your life and others..And by the way  You are not FAT, you are full figured!

Honey please don't abort your children they are your future.. they will be the biggest blessing if you can be brave enough to trust GOD to find the way.  And the father just tell him no! and then walk away... Forgive him he really is that shallow and self centered at times.. it's all he knows.  You are going to be a wonderful mother and wife.  The career you choose will have it's place and will fulfill  it's purpose.  In the meantime enjoy your kids while they are little and stay close to them as they are teenagers.  When your daughter is angry with you love her even more. They need your guidance, forgiveness and unconditional love.. Hold them accountable it wil cause them to grow.  Skip the horses until you can afford them on your own terms. Choose life!  in all things...

My grandparents, all four of them were very different and it helped me see the world differently.  My mom she was brave in an impossible situation... Thanks mom.  Mike Whitlock, she was awesome  believed in my trainging talent when I did not.  Sherry Smith for being obediant to God and sharing his grace at a time that I needed a sign post.  Dani for being the kid I wanted to be, and letting me learn to parent with unconditional love, you have no idea how much that helped my kids.. For Lindsay for revisiting a nasty painful issue back into my life so that I could grow up & beyond it.  Most of the others have been dethroned... Jimmy..mi amore  thanks for showing me that I can continue... Kitty thanks for the acknowledgement.. I was denied that for forty years.. thank you seems just so small.  Robert Dover and Isabella Werth you are so extremely talanted! I learn everytime I watch you ride. My Nana, she just didn't let anyone bother her... WOW  Iris  I miss you so much.. You  encouraged me beyond words.. and then became a best friend to my mom... you were a great help RIP

Mario.. words can not begin to explain, you delivered truth to me..and buried a dead horse that had been with me long enough. I love you!

Floyd for being brave and thrusting me in the horse business head first. You loved when I know it was painful. 

All my girls and guys that have been around to show me that life is to be lived and enjoyed and cherished.  God promises this day.... and as such he is my greatest mentor.. I am to seek his guidance daily... he is my source of strength, forgiveness, and wisdom.. In him I can do all things...